Monday, February 1, 2016
I am a Addict! Day 1 Abstinent!
Even though I didn't get to go to the OA meeting as planned today. Today has been a success for me today.I have been on plan with my food today and within my Macros on MyFitmessPal. All day yesterday I was sick as a dog and in the bathroom from eating all that chocolate. I promised myself and my HP that if I made it through being sick that I wouldn't eat that much chocolate at one time again. My stomach still isn't 100 % today but much better than yesterday. Calling this a lesson learned! If nothing comes up Hubby will be taking me to next Sunday's OA meeting.
Day 2 was a FAIL!!!!!
I am so ashamed of myself. I can't go 2 days and stay completely on plan without binging on a big piece of Lemon Cake. I was doing so good today. I waited to Hubby went to bed and My daughter and her boyfriend left before I ate it. Am I a hopeless case? Is there help for me?
Saturday, January 30, 2016
I have a problem!
Why do I keep doing this to myself? I have been binging on big blocks of
chocolate since last night. This morning it finally caught up to me and
made me sick. I threw the other two blocks in the trash. Hubby is
driving me to my first OA meeting tomorrow which is one and a half ours
away. Need help!
Friday, January 29, 2016
Admitting I Have A Problem!!!
Admitting I Have A Problem!!!
Hi! My Name is Joyce! I am 47 years old, disabled, happily married to a wonderful man who supports me in anything I do, we are from Virginia. I am a food addict and I am a overeater. I NEED HELP!
My heaviest weight was 505 lbs Sept. 2011. From Sept. 2011 to Nov. 6th 2014 I lost 94 lbs through all kinds of diets, a lot of mistakes, a lot of overeating, a lot of hiding food so nobody could see what i was eating, but I still made it. On Nov. 7th, 2014 I had Weight Loss Surgery (Duodenal Switch). I have lost 135 lbs since my surgery with a lot of heartache and tears, lots of carbs and sweets. My old habits have came back to haunt me. I am sneaking and eating, hiding food. Sometimes it's like I don't care. With the surgery, I know it a mind set thing, and my mind is not there anymore. I wake up every morning with the best of intentions, but by evening and night fall I won't to eat the whole house down. I don't understand! It is so bad when we grocery shop, I can pass by the outer aisle and there are cookies and cakes and i am literally drooling. What is wrong with me? I feel so bad. I literally can't stand myself. I am hurting on the inside and all i want to do is eat! Looking for HELP!!!!!
I made my first step this morning. I found a NA group ( there is no OA group in our area) and I went! It was a good meeting and I will go back. Just listening to those NA addictions got me to thinking about my addiction of food. Some shared their stories. My heart hurt for them. It was kinda sad. The were very open. I talked to the lady at the beginning of the meeting and told her I was there for OA purposes. She welcomed me with open arms. They have lots of meetings here all during the week. I am ready to do this. I met another newcomer that was there for NA but she also has a eating disorder. they suggested we exchange phone numbers, so we did. Hope to find a sponsor!
Hi! My Name is Joyce! I am 47 years old, disabled, happily married to a wonderful man who supports me in anything I do, we are from Virginia. I am a food addict and I am a overeater. I NEED HELP!
My heaviest weight was 505 lbs Sept. 2011. From Sept. 2011 to Nov. 6th 2014 I lost 94 lbs through all kinds of diets, a lot of mistakes, a lot of overeating, a lot of hiding food so nobody could see what i was eating, but I still made it. On Nov. 7th, 2014 I had Weight Loss Surgery (Duodenal Switch). I have lost 135 lbs since my surgery with a lot of heartache and tears, lots of carbs and sweets. My old habits have came back to haunt me. I am sneaking and eating, hiding food. Sometimes it's like I don't care. With the surgery, I know it a mind set thing, and my mind is not there anymore. I wake up every morning with the best of intentions, but by evening and night fall I won't to eat the whole house down. I don't understand! It is so bad when we grocery shop, I can pass by the outer aisle and there are cookies and cakes and i am literally drooling. What is wrong with me? I feel so bad. I literally can't stand myself. I am hurting on the inside and all i want to do is eat! Looking for HELP!!!!!
I made my first step this morning. I found a NA group ( there is no OA group in our area) and I went! It was a good meeting and I will go back. Just listening to those NA addictions got me to thinking about my addiction of food. Some shared their stories. My heart hurt for them. It was kinda sad. The were very open. I talked to the lady at the beginning of the meeting and told her I was there for OA purposes. She welcomed me with open arms. They have lots of meetings here all during the week. I am ready to do this. I met another newcomer that was there for NA but she also has a eating disorder. they suggested we exchange phone numbers, so we did. Hope to find a sponsor!
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
Sunday, January 25, 2015
Meds, Vitamins and What I Ate Today! 1/25/2015
I have a ritual I do every Sunday Morning to prepare for the week. I have to get all my Meds and Vitamins ready for the week. It is really a big job, b/c I have to pay close attention to which pill goes into which square. I don't need to mess that up. It could be dangerous!
I had a better day with food and a little better with my water! It is a work in progress! I try to do better everyday, that is all I can do! I hope you enjoy the pics I post!
I had a better day with food and a little better with my water! It is a work in progress! I try to do better everyday, that is all I can do! I hope you enjoy the pics I post!
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